Omg. I am totally exhausted this morning. Completely drained. I think my drive to keep working on the house may be completely gone… I’m a little sad about that b/c I REALLY enjoy looking @ what I have done. It has made our house so beautiful. Frankly, after removing tons [it felt that way] of wall paper and painting I just don’t want to learn how to spray texture on the wall. *insert whining here*
On a happy note, I am surprised and delighted with home schooling. Teaching the kids is rewarding and fun and they are so good!!!!!!!! More importantly I am afforded the opportunity and luxury of time to really learn about letting the Holy Spirit change me from the inside out. [without this, home schooling would not go so well] The grace based hearing and grace based teaching @ Gateway is really setting me free. I can just FEEL layers of junk and ‘striving’ to be a good Christian falling off me all the time. I am LOVING the Titus 2 Bible study and truly wish every church had one. The theme is Titus 2, trained by grace. Oh, that every mom could have the opportunity that I have to go to this Bible study. It is changing my life week by week. I am learning how to have a REAL relationship and prayer life in God. My prayer is that the Holy Spirit change me from the inside out [instead of my own striving] so that I don’t run the race only to hear that without love, it was all for nothing. I can’t even imagine gathering all the knowledge and parenting strategies and marriage conferences and missing out on 1 Corinthians 13 love and then it all being for NOTHING. Thank God for the Holy Spirit and the gift of praying in other tongues.